…that I feel like I’m a squirrel.
I wish there was a way to write while I’m in the shower. I have the best ideas/thoughts/words, etc. while I’m standing under the water. It’s as if the words are pouring on me. But as I dry off–so to do the words. It is so frustrating! There must have been 10 times yesterday that I thought–“oh, there’s a gem of an idea..” but was unable to take 5 minutes to write it down.
Elliott hasn’t been sleeping which means I haven’t been sleeping. And a non-sleeping mommy is a crazy, cranky mommy. I seriously am trying to not go postal–but I have a lot on my plate.
The frustrating thing is, I cannot get ahead of the game. I’m always just on the edge of making the deadline. I have all the balls in the air and can hear the circus music but if one more ball gets thrown into the mix, everything is coming down.
And this isn’t the stuff that I want to write. This isn’t what I put out to the universe. I truly believe some of the things that were written about in The Secret. Science has even proven it. We tend to get/find what we are seeking. I remember that when my husband and I were looking for a house, every where we went, we saw “for sale” signs. That’s where our energy was, so that’s where our attention was drawn. Every time I’m pregnant (which isn’t THAT often), all I notice are pregnant women. Years ago, scientists were looking for the smallest matter and found quarks. Then they wanted to see if there was anything smaller and kept looking–sure enough–they found it. So looking for something does make us more likely to find it.
Should be great, right? Well, not necessarily. We are–to agree with some political pundits–a nation of whiners. We like to complain. Come on, you know you are. When you get together with your friends, do you talk about how nice the cashier was to you? How she rang up your order without a mistake and put it into the bag and didn’t squash the bread? Or do you rant about the person who cut you off in the street, the store that had the rude employee, the garage attendant who took advantage of you? Those are the fun things to talk about. The reason the news has terrible things on it is that THAT’s what people want to hear. And when we hear it, we repeat it, when we repeat it, we focus on it and tend to find it more.
Now I don’t believe you can talk yourself out of needing glasses or not being diabetic (two things touted in The Secret) but I do think, as I’ve said before, that words have power. Our economy is in the toilet–did we talk ourselves into it? No! Financial companies made very bad decisions that have had long-range repercussions. BUT–talking about how bad it is does make it worse.