I just finished making a corkscrew scarf. I didn’t use the fuzzy yarn, but it was a bluish-silver and looks quite nice. But the point is this….
The entire time I was knitting the scarf, I was convinced it wasn’t working. I was working on circular needles and knitting it horizontally, rather than vertically, so all I could see was a big long blob on my needles.
The directions were very simple–just straight knitting–and increasing before and after each stitch (you can find the pattern here). Still, I was uncertain and didn’t see HOW it would possibly spiral. Maybe I had to use the exact same yarn–mine wasn’t fuzzy. I couldn’t find the exact same needles–mine were a little longer. Seriously, this really was going to end up like some long skinny, wimpy scarf–the second project that I would be frogging.
Just last night, I finished binding it off and held it up. And watched it spiral. Just like the picture. Just like the instructions. It worked. Even though I didn’t have any faith.
And I realized that a lot of the things we do in life, are kinda like me knitting–okay–I’ll give you the benefit of the doubt–maybe you DON’T do things in life the way I knit, but work with me here. A lot of times I don’t do what I know God wants me to do–what I should do– because I don’t have any faith that things will work out when I follow His instructions. You know what I’m talking about. You know you are supposed to talk to the new person who is visiting your church, offer your cranky neighbor a helping hand, be friendly to the snotty mom who is always standing at the corner with PERFECT hair and a PERFECT figure, and those GREAT little boots that made your legs look like a bunch of fat little sausages–you know that God wants you to reach out–to stretch–to follow his instructions. And yet, you ignore His instructions because you don’t have faith that it will work out. Someone else will greet the visitor, you’re too tired to deal with the cranky neighbor and don’t want to listen to him complain about his latest ailments, and that PERFECT mom–what in the world would she want with the likes of me–I mean–you. My little scarf won’t do what it’s supposed to do.
But, if I follow the instructions–God’s instructions–I might be pleasantly surprised. The visitor may turn out to be a friend, the cranky neighbor may just be lonely, and the PERFECT mom–well she might be as insecure at I–I mean–you are.
Faith–it’s hard sometimes. We all remember those times when we did what we were “supposed” to do and it didn’t work out. Maybe the neighbor really was a crank and the PERFECT mom really was PERFECT–we put our selves out there and got slapped down. Does that mean His instructions were flawed–that even though we did what we were supposed to do, our scarf didn’t spiral?
Not necessarily. We can’t put our goals into God’s work. Maybe He didn’t want you to connect with that person, maybe he wanted to prepare your heart and spirit for the next person who is coming down the road. Maybe He needed you in a place so you would be more receptive to hearing what He want you to do next. Maybe He needed you to realize that you, in fact, are NOT the one doing the knitting, but are the yarn that is being knit.