And by that I mean I’ve been…
Again. For two stories. I have strange thoughts about this rejection–part of me knows I’m not going to win–and my friend H says that’s bad–that I’m putting weak intentions out into the Universe. But I do feel slightly arrogant to say, “Oh yes, I’m going to be picked. Not only am I going to be picked, I’m going to win.” I’m a little more conservative and figure–maybe I’ll get an honorable mention–even though some contests hand out honorable mentions like attendants hand out paper towels in disgusting bathroom. They think that if they give you a paper towel you will–A. Be indebted enough that you feel obligated to hand them a tip in the huge jar, covered with pictures of their adorable children looking hungry, and B. Not notice how absolutely disgusting the bathroom is, and that fake citrusy air spray isn’t going to make up for the wet, sticky floor. So when winner lists appear and there are the grand prize winners listed in
Big Letters using the H1 tag
I immediately scroll to the bottom of the web page–to the H6 tag
Where I scan for my name with a magnifying glass, wondering why any HTML programmer would consider this an acceptable font for any heading.
And I don’t find my name. Sometimes, for just a moment, I get excited, hoping I will find my name under an
H4 or even, possibly, an
but no…my name doesn’t appear on any list. Again.
I try to console myself by pointing out, that it is only through entering contests (not often) and submitting stuff to publishers, that it is even possible to BE rejected. Ah, but it still stings.
Especially when the Honorable Mention list contains 100 names and I think, “Seriously? 104 people wrote stories that were better than mine?”
But I am a little closer to getting published….I found some statistics on the Internet and since it’s printed there, we know it must be true (credit goes to InkyGirl.com, Writers and Rejection)
- Judy Blume (my hero when I was 12 and wanting to be a writer and coming of age–come on girls–we all had the book with the corners turned down on the “good parts”) received noting but rejections the first two she submitted stuff.
- Madeleine L’Engle (RIP) Author of another keeper for all times, A Wrinkle in Time was rejected by 26 publishers. It was my first sci-fi/fantasy book. Remember Mrs. Who and Mrs. Whatsit and a tesseract? I WAS Meg and I’m convinced, that Charles Wallace suffered from Asperger’s. God I loved that boy!
- Princess Diaries was rejected 17 times. LOVED the movies.
- Jonathan Livingston Seagull by Richard Bach was rejected 140 times before it was eventually published.
- Margaret Mitchell’s Gone With The Wind was rejected 38 times.
- Watership Down by Richard Adams: 26 rejections.
- Frank Herbert’s Dune was rejected nearly 20 times before being published. My husband will say that it’s simply because society cannot understand greatness. I wonder if it was something about the worm poop that scared off the publishers. But hey, that’s just me.
I know I need to embrace my rejections and know that they are but pages on a path. You know what they call a writer who never stops submitting her stuff? Published.
So I’ll just keep plugging along here…posting to an unread blog. Okay, I know there are a few of you out there who read this. There’s email@example.com who wrote, “You best ever. Reed u first every moning. Visit my site pls.” and HappyGrl@goodtimes.net who thinks we should start dating. Hey, a girl has to take her fans as she gets them. Write on!