11 And we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness to have the full assurance of hope until the end, 12 so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.
It’s been one of those days. You know those days–where your ‘to-do’ list gets longer as the day gets shorter. Those days where you tried to satisfy everyone and ended up pleasing no one–including yourself. What can be especially hard is when you feel like you’ve failed in an area where you feel like you should be succeeding. I’m in the process of developing curriculum for kids who range from 8-18. It is a huge task. Thankfully I some wonderful people who are helping me (I’d have long since thrown myself out the window without them–never mind that I live in a ranch), but I’ve receive a fair amount of criticism from people who know what I’m doing but at the same time, not what I’m doing. I get a lot of questions from people who I wouldn’t expect to question me. Not that I think I’m perfect, but that, I expected they would trust me to create something good.
This Friday, I’m going to be leading 40ish kids on a three-day retreat. I’m worried about pleasing the parents. I’m really worried about pleasing the youth. I’m worried about pleasing my Pastors. All of my kids are in the program and I’m worried that they will find it boring or too old or too young. I’m worried about pleasing my teacher-volunteers. I have nightmares about some of the curriculum taking too long to complete and having to leave things unfinished. I worry activities will be too short and I’ll be staring at 40 kids who have nothing but time on their hands.
Then it dawned on me. I really only have one person who I need to be concerned about. And I really don’t need to be worried at all. God tasked me with this project and I have to believe that I am doing what He has put before me. I have to believe that as long as I keep my eyes on Him, everything will work out. Will there be parents who aren’t pleased with the program? Possibly. Will there be youth who aren’t pleased with the program? Maybe. I can’t focus on that. But I’m tired. So tired I was seriously considering skipping my Day 5. I’ve been reading and researching so much material that I just didn’t have the energy to sit down and write one more word.
And then this was my random scripture:
And we desire each one of you to show the same earnestness to have the full assurance of hope until the end, so that you may not be sluggish, but imitators of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.
I actually looked back a couple of verses, 9-10 and found Paul saying this:
Even though we speak like this, dear friends, we are confident of better things in your case—things that accompany salvation. God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.
Doesn’t it just sound like the answer to my day?!
Paul even starts Hebrews 6 with this directive:
Therefore let us leave the elementary teachings about Christ and go on to maturity, not laying again the foundation of repentance from acts that lead to death, and of faith in God, instruction about baptisms, the laying on of hands, the resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment. And God permitting, we will do so.
Am I still worried? Please! I’m human. Of course I’m worried! But I’m excited too. I have the opportunity to work with some fabulous teachers who are just as excited to work with the youth. We have been given a great gift–the opportunity to leave elementary teachings and go onto maturity with our youth. God will not forget our work and the love we are showing to the kids. I have “the full assurance of hope until the end.”