24 “No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.”
Now that I’ve changed the name on some of my images, my view count has dropped off significantly. Apparently sushi is a very popular search term and some of my images are particularly appetizing. Changing their names to “notAnInterestingImage.jpg” and “WhyDontYouReadMyBlog.jpg” aren’t as attractive search words. Go figure.
Maybe this should be an image on every page.
I’ve just started taking a non-fiction writing class. You know what–everyone is a writer. And when I was talking at dinner about writing (AKA getting published) someone else said how they wanted to be published too. Seems you can’t throw a book without hitting a writer.
All day I am constantly torn between writing something that isn’t work related, doing work that actually pays and making sure that the kids receive the proper amount of love and affection. Not that The Boy wants love and affection–he just wants access to Comic Life. But The Girl and The Baby are still a little dependent on me. I know that won’t last forever, so I am really conflicted when The Baby cries, “I want my Mommy!” At the end of the day, I often feel that I haven’t satisfied any masters–my writing remains undone; my work doesn’t measure up; and the kids think their mother is attached to a computer 24/7.
When Jesus was speaking about money versus God, I don’t necessarily think he was actually referring to money. I think he’s talking about the material world and the spiritual world. You can’t live in both worlds. So how do I do this when I have to live in the material world. I can’t float through the world not worrying about money or work. I can’t roll around in the grass with the kids and plan that God will take care of me. I have to be in the material world.
I need to learn to live in a world as though I am a tourist. God wants me to enjoy this stay, but to realize that I’m NOT STAYING. If my focus is on what God wants for me, everything should fall into place. When I’m struggling with priorities I need to consider what is going to count in the long run.
Do I know the ultimate balance for all of this? Of course not! It’s 11pm and I’m writing. I have class tomorrow and I haven’t done my reading. But I’m trying.